christmas is coming and i just couldn't be any happier to see that certain someone of mine come christmas day. he gives me butterflies, still.
i'm sure once it begins to snow a lot i'll have plenty of lovely photographs of the wonderful snow. the leaves were wonderful while they were here but they honestly are starting to bore me. i can't wait to go downtown and take pictures of all the christmas lights they set up every year in the harbour, it really is beautiful there.
lately i've been listening to a lot of older music i have from tonic and metric and other random bands; it's nice to visit the past occassionally. it makes me smile to remember all of the memories attached to songs here and there.
I entered "between us" into the fall leaves competition which you can find the link for in the author's comments on "between us". You should put a submission in for the contest as well if you have a recent photograph of some lovely leaves or feel like taking a picture of some.
I revamped my entirewebsite. It now only has my photography on it; it's sort of a portfolio for me to submit to universities and such as well as a way to advertise myself as a photographer.
I now offer PRINTS on my website as well! I haven't quite figured out how much they will cost yet, but I assure you they will be inexpensive. If you order a print it will come to you in a nice little yellow package (hand packed by myself) and will be signed and dated by yours truly on the back. Plus if you were to order more than one, it'd come as a packed price with a percentage off of every additional print your purchase. So if you're interested in possibly requesting a print from me go to my website to find out more.
my website, being optimistic, my body, my life, and most importantly - trying.
i've been having a very rough time lately and i just have gotten too close to reaching my breaking point. i'm lost and hurt and afraid beyond belief. yes, i know that some of these things are not the end of the world, but they do have a really large negative effect on my life right now and one thing in particular will scare me for sure. it's hard to see someone become a totally different person and you can't do anything about it; you can't tell them that their change is for the worst.
i'll eventually get my website back in order (not that anyone fucking visited it anyways) and it'll just be a photography portfolio. prints will also be available on my website which i guess is exciting, although i doubt anyone will order them.
i need a lot of help. please be understanding of that.
on saturday night my two step cousins (including jessica), my younger brother, jessica's boyfriend, and i were all in a car accident. we were coming towards and overpass and a man darted out in front of us. we hit his passenger's side of his car head on. jake (jessica's boyfriend) was driving, jessica was in the passenger's seat, and the rest of us were in the back seat of her convertible with me being in the center. we managed to make our way out of the car and could all walk when we got out. but i hit my face on something and my nose was bleeding everywhere, which really frightened me. the other driving didn't even call 911 or ask if we were okay once; something was mentally wrong with him and he was on a medication that it is illegal to drive under the influence of. a man who stopped, a firefighter, called 911 and our parents for us. when the emt's came, they put jessica, nikki (jessica's younger sister), and i on boards and gave us neck braces. jessica and i rode in an ambulance together and nikki rode in the other one with my younger brother (noah) who was standing but his chin needed stitches so they took him. jake rode in my dad's car to the hospital with my family.
at the hospital, jessica, nikki, and i all got x-rays of things but it turned out that nikki was the only one who broke anything - she broke her wrist. jessica and i are both limping pretty bad and have chemical burns. jessica has a knot on her head too and my whole face is bruised and hurts pretty bad from hitting it, my forehead, jaw, and nose especially. noah had to get stitches on his chin. and jake only has chemical burns. i'm so very thankful that we're all okay. we're lucky to be alive to be honest. that car looks so messed up. i'll be sure to edit this once i can add pictures to it.
things like this just make you so thankful for your friends and family and your life in general. my boyfriend, who lives in pittsburgh obviously couldn't make the 5 hour drive to where i live. so i called him the next morning like he had asked my dad to have me do and i have never been so happy to hear his voice; it was so reassuring.
just live every day like something tragic like this would happen to you. enjoy your life more than you normally would.